Starting Again

I feel like I'm starting again...not starting over, starting again. My mental plateau has now lasted about 7-8 weeks and it is starting to have an effect on my physical results and progress. My weight is the same as it was, +/- 2 pounds (ok, seriously, would I write that if it was really minus 2 pounds? no, so to be honest it is the same plus 2 pounds, which means it is not the same it is PLUS 2 pounds).


I find myself wanting a 20 oz bottle of ice cold Coca-Cola and a candy bar every time I am in the grocery store (which is frequently now because of a new obsession about couponing, more on that later...), a chicken biscuit and Coke every morning for the last 3 weeks as we rushed out the door to baseball camp, swim lessons, and VBS (too rushed to make a shake for breakfast, but enough time to swing through the line at C-F-A?), and frozen pizza for dinner because I haven't planned for dinner and besides we have 20 tubes of toothpaste, 15 sticks of deodorant, 7 boxes of cereal, but no vegetables in the house.


So, I'm starting again. It has been hard to get the gym since the kids got out of school. I kept telling myself that it would be easier once they got out...but no, it never gets easier...it will be easier when the kids go back to school, it will be easier in the winter, it will be easier when the weather warms up...no, it never gets easier, so I've got to just keep doing what I know I need to do and just work around whatever and whichever obstacle is in the path today.


I've been learning about couponing and how to coordinate the lowest price of a product with the best coupon available, and I'm really enjoying it. I've been focusing on getting such great deals and "stockpiling" certain things, but I haven't found the balance of doing this while planning out healthy meals for the week. We now have enough shampoo, toilet paper, ziploc bags, spaghetti sauce and fruit snacks to last til October or so, but almost every night I struggle with that dreaded question "What's for dinner". I've been saving about 50-60% each trip for the last 3-4 weeks. I do feel that "high" from the adrenaline rush (i guess?) when I go to check out and I watch that original total tick down as each coupon is scanned. I just need to reorganize and plan out our menus better...again.

I know what I should do, what I'm supposed to do, I just have to come back around and make it what I want to do. Break over...time to start again.